Wait..what?

So yeah figured as long as I could I would try and do a better update clarification thing than my last journal so..here goes nothing I guess..um..yeah. So I know or at least I think I've posted journals in the past about my having seizures/epilepsy and all and well..I'm supposed to take medicine for them..every day. Which I was..for awhile..but then well..the neurologist I had been seeing to treat them..retired and his little group or whatever you call it..dissolved? uh..ceased to groupify? or..whatever you call it when a doctors office ceases to be a doctors office. Yeah. So I've been needing to find a new neurologist to go see since without a neurologist..well lets just say I've been having to ration my seizure meds. Of course you're all probably wondering why not just pick a neurologist and make an appointment right? Well it's not that simple though I wish it was since lately well there is the lack of concentration usually but also lately I've been uh..waking up without remembering ever falling asleep and have wound up in places without..remembering going there or why and there have been other things as well that all add up to my seizures having possibly gotten worse. But as badly as I need a new neurologist none will see me. Thats right you read the correctly. They will not see me. Why won't they see me? Because they have a condition about needing my medical records from my previous neurologist first (and yes that has been the..thing with every neurologist's office thats been thus far contacted about an appointment) the problem? When my previous neurologist retired and all that..well..who ever was supposed to be in charge of the offices patient records or in charge of mine at least..lost them. Yep. Over ten years worth of my medical records have disappeared and no one that has been contacted about the issue has any idea what happened to them and I don't have any idea how to go about finding them myself or even if I could locate them myself even though..I can't see a new neurologist without them and yeah.

So basically at this point um...huh..the lack of contration abilities is back which means I've sat at the computer too long since..oh yeah..thats right..my seaizures are triggered by light..mostly flashing ones but even looking at a still computer or tv screen for too long can trigger them and well there are other things that can trigger them but with the way I'm feeling or starting to feel is telling me that I have spent far too long on here as it is and really need to get off now so sorry of any of this doesn't make sense but..That is all.

-Semper Fi And Proud To Be An American

raven